Monday Blues...

Sorry guys... This is gonna be a depressing post... because thats what i am feeling right now.. and if i wont vent it out here.. then where else right??

I was talking to a friend yesterday.. who was really a good friend till very recently.. when things really went downhill and unfortunately there is no looking back now... she said something to me which got me thinking...
" Rahul, your priorities have changed" ..

yes dear... maybe they have... maybe you have realized it too late .. bcoz when i gave you all the priority in this world... you were too busy making a mockery outta it... you had gotten used to it..

but in the end .. thats whats gonna happen rite... you go your way and i go mine... because there nothing else other than that to it... i will hate myself forever.. for the fact that i was so blind.. for the fact that i didnt see it coming whe the whole world saw it... or maybe i did... but i was too busy being a loyal friend...

and whats worse is... you still have the audacity to tell me that my priorities have changed.. oh now you wanna be a priority.. do you?? sorry girl... you cant have your cake and eat it too...

you keep smsing me... and call me... that why dont we meet up now...
i ask you lady... what about the times when i wanted to meet up .. when i wanted you to be there for me... why do you expect that i will be there for you now... FACE IT... i am not on a charity trip here...

and the worst part is .... i am still supposed to be a friend.

Its finally come to this!

well.. it had to actually... after a lifetime of devilishly fattening and waist increasing food habits... it had to happen...

I have joined a gym... :(

and thats no mean task... it took a lot of pestering ( read pushing) from friends... an odd scarcasm filled qoute from sis... ( arre itna mota hoga to acchi biwi nahi milegi!!... huH!! ) ... and finally .. with the weigh scales tippling over at 81 kgs... was enough motivation...

and so i took that dreaded trip to the nearest talwalkars... filled up the form ... paid the money ( read: burnt a HUGE hole in my credit card account) ...

i was finally at the mercy of the trainer... he looked at me from head to toe... shook his head... gurrrr... and then instructed... on the spot jogging for a min NOW!!... now... i thought ( the keyword here is i THOUGHT) that i was pretty good atleast at my fitness level .. if nothing else... but boy... was i wrong...

15 secs into the jog... and i had already broken into a sweat... 30 secs.. and i was gasping for air... 45 secs... and i felt as if i was having a mini heart attack!!!

what happened in the remainder of the session is too gross to be mentioned here... :) ...

by the end of it... the trainer had only one thing to say... " Aap aise karoge to nahin hoga..." .. huh!!! after one hour of sweating... putting my body through the torture... what more is expected!

and as instructed .. for some time now... its goddbye to all pizzaz, burgers.. and such yummy stuff... :(...

but all i can do... is stare here...